"Gives You Hell"...All American Rejects

"...When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence love
And where's that shiny car,
And did it ever get you far
You've never seem so tense love
I've never seen you fall so hard,
Do you know where you are?

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying..."


It’s been awhile since I’ve posted anything, not because nothing has occurred but because I just haven’t felt it. For the most part, it’s been the same the past couple of weeks with some late night drinking, bad decisions made and the same some relaxing and hanging out. I’ve met up w/WB several times, doing the same but with a twist, drinking in his heated garage so he can smoke the cigar or randomly running into some bartenders from my favorite bar and spending the night drinking while watching them get severely intoxicated. I haven’t hung out w/L-Y as she is on the other side of the earth, visiting her dream man in his motherland. It sounds as though it’s going well and who knows she might end up coming back for her stuff and dog and head back again, for good – ha. Randomly here and there, I’ve met up w/WB and The Youngin, still the same. Though The Youngin does ‘everything right’, I’m still not feeling it but I’m thinking lately, he’s getting the hint. And I’ve hung out w/SmallTown Gal, which is good and bad. Fun some times and the other times gotten myself into trouble, not the legal kind but the kind you shouldn’t get into at my age. Regardless, all fun and games but more thought provoking…

I suppose it’s been hitting me lately with all the fun and games I’ve gotten myself into as of recent. And so, I find myself wondering if I’m wasting my time. If I’ll look back at these years and wondered what I was doing, instead of searching for ‘the one’ I was partying, spending time with good friends, and relaxing. In my honest opinion, I feel 84% of the time, I’m happy with how life has panned out so far and feel no missing out on the couple life. About 12% of me feels the pressure not from others but from my parents to find someone. They’ve always been supportive and advised that if I’m happy it doesn’t matter but that 12% of me wishes I could be that one to give them more grandkids; grandkids that live in the area. The 12% also includes the friends that I hear or see that have gotten married, have kids and ‘live the dream’. That leaves me with 4% of the time, that I think I should be active in my search for love or something of the like. I fear that the 4% will increase as I get older and wonder if I should get into ‘the scene’ and be proactive to lessen any worries and regrets when I get older.